What's going on now

I recently started two jobs and went on a little vacation, kind of like a little reality check. So I want to apologise for not updating as often as I'd like too, but we all know life takes matters into it's own hands and then you fall into a rabbit hole and get all sorts of sidetracked with usually more important things than a tiny blog on the interwebs. 

So I guess that's a sorry but not sorry situation. 

I wanted to jump on here really quick though, to voice some opinions that I have from listening to the Stansberry show on 106.9. First, love the show it gets me up and moving in the morning and keeps me as updated as I want to be on sports, life anecdotes, and news. Oh and let's not forget the hilarious commentary that comes along. But they were discussing mental health days, which are important to take here and there and deciding where is the line drawn between a real mental health day and a vacation day. 

Personally for me, mental health days are days I take off because my depression hits me in the face and all I want to do is take a day to sleep, eat whatever I want and take a bath or shower in the middle of the day. And let's be honest, sometimes I can't eat or take a bath because that requires effort to take care of myself. However, some days I just want to sleep all day, stay in my PJs and under the weight of my covers and the darkness under them, and not because I've worked too hard and want a break, but because my body feels required to take the time to just exist. 

Depression like mine comes in waves and can last anywhere between one day or six. But you can't take six days off in a row for mental health, that's not how our society works. Depression like mine is constantly misdiagnosed, because I'll go to therapy and within six months they see I'm fine, when I'm not fine. Maybe I just got that good at acting fine? In a society that has incredible therapists and doctors they're surely easy to fake around. (Not promoting that you actually fake a symptom,  you don't need the extra doctors bills thrown at you!) But depression comes in a lot of different forms and even after six months of therapy, I highly recommended if that therapy isn't working for you find someone who specializes in something more specific to you. Psychologytoday.com has a variety of symptoms you can choose from as well as a therapist who fits your needs exactly. Along with a sliding scale payment or someone who takes your insurance so you can pay little to nothing to get the help you deserve.