Here's to my 20s
I'm turning 21 on Sunday and I'm realizing I need to start getting my life together. I want to try to make my 20s the best years of my life because by the time 30 comes around I don't want to be lost without a career and I'm not saying I will but I could be married by then if I chose to be. My mom was right to tell me, "don't rush growing up." Because the harsh reality of it is that I am an adult. I am not a child anymore.
I've realized I have to make some sort of decision about whether or not I want to go to college. It feels like a now or never sort of thing and I don't even know if I like it. The risk is that I'll be in debt if I go and hate it. Or I could not go and save money and find another way to grow. But no offense to the hard workers in food service, but I don't want to get stuck in that.
I never even thought I would make it to 20 when I was 16, the thing that kept me going was the simple fact of being curious. Being curious is what made me want to stay in this world. I still have no idea what in the hell I'm going to do with my life, but I want to be able to look back and say what I did was worth it. But what do I do with it?
What do I want in this life? I want to travel. I want to write about my experiences. I want to be able to be a person who says yes more than no to things that bring me joy. I want to rid the things and feelings I hate. I want to be successful in the things I do. I want to experiment as often as I can and not feel bad for it later. I want to take a leap of faith like spider-man in order to become the person that is truly me. I've always helped people, so much so I forgot I need to help myself too.
So here's to my 20s! May they be the best years for me to learn more about myself!
I've realized I have to make some sort of decision about whether or not I want to go to college. It feels like a now or never sort of thing and I don't even know if I like it. The risk is that I'll be in debt if I go and hate it. Or I could not go and save money and find another way to grow. But no offense to the hard workers in food service, but I don't want to get stuck in that.
I never even thought I would make it to 20 when I was 16, the thing that kept me going was the simple fact of being curious. Being curious is what made me want to stay in this world. I still have no idea what in the hell I'm going to do with my life, but I want to be able to look back and say what I did was worth it. But what do I do with it?
What do I want in this life? I want to travel. I want to write about my experiences. I want to be able to be a person who says yes more than no to things that bring me joy. I want to rid the things and feelings I hate. I want to be successful in the things I do. I want to experiment as often as I can and not feel bad for it later. I want to take a leap of faith like spider-man in order to become the person that is truly me. I've always helped people, so much so I forgot I need to help myself too.
So here's to my 20s! May they be the best years for me to learn more about myself!
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